Song of the Day Tears Don't Fall ~ Bullet For My Valentine

Lets go!

With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone f*ing hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone f*ing hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Oh! Yeah!

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time

Lets go

Would she hear me if i called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something to be going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone f*ing hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?


Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall [tears don't fall]
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come
Better!

Your tears dont fall they crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home.

Song of the Day (:

Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories baby
Thinkin bout everything we've been through
Maybe i've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til I came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Locked up in your arms and our friends are laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them
Now I'm pacing down the hall
Chasing down your street
Flashback to the night when you said to me
Nothings gonna change not for me and you
Not before I knew how much I had to lose

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til i came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we can work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

If you're out there if you're somewhere if you're moving on
I've be waiting for you ever since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before
And i just wanna see you back at my front door
And i'd say

Come back come back come back to me like
You would before you said its not that easy
Before the fight before i locked you out
But i'd take it all back now

Come back come back come back to me like
You would you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside til i came out
Come back come back come back to me like
You could you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby what about the ending
Oh i thought you'd be here by now oh ohh ohh ohh
That you'd be here by now



Taylor Swift ~ It This Was a Movie

Song of the Day

Chances Are ~ Five for Fighting

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Chances are when said and done
Who'll be the lucky ones
Who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever
No matter how it feels today

Chances are we´ll find a new equation
Chances roll away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don't get me wrong I'd never say never
Cause though love can change the weather
No act of God can pull me away from you

I´m just a realistic man
A bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to love beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I see us through yeah

Chances are we´ll find two destinations
Chances roll away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
The possibilities
Over me
Eight to five, two to one
Lay your money on the sun
until you crash what have you done?
Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you breathe
You gotta cry before you sing

Chances chances

Chances lost are hopes torn up pages
Maybe this time
Chances are we´ll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see
Chances are the fascination
Chances won't escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need



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Horror Story

As you all know, Shannon and I had planned to write a horror story together. Since we are no longer friends I will be taking over my own story. After Scent of Desperation is finished I will immediately start on the horror story. You should be aware that Scent of Desperation will take a while since I want to make it an actual story, so don't expect something chilling anytime soon (:


Peace, love, and ninjas

~Emily

Song of the Day

Bottoms Up ~ Trey Songz ft. Nicki Minaj


Yeah
Oh oh it's Mr. Steal Yo Girl
Oh oh it's Mr. Steal Yo Girl oh oh
Let's go


Bottoms up, bottoms up, ey, what's in ya cup
Got a couple bottles, but a couple ain't enough
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw your hands up
Tell security we bout to tear this club up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, pocket full of green
Girl, you know I love the way you shake it in them jeans
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw ya hands up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, bottoms up (up, up)


You know what it is girl, we back up in this thang
Money stay in my pocket, girl, I'm like a walkin' bank
Tell me whatcha drank, tell me whatcha thank
If I go get these bottles, we go alcohol insane
Callin' all the girls, do you hear me?
All around the world, city to city
Cheers to the girls, throw a deuce to the guys
Now I got a chicken and a goose in the ride
Gettin' loose in the ride
Hatin' a** ***** you can move to the move to the move to the side


Bottoms up, bottoms up, ey, what's in ya cup
Got a couple bottles, but a couple ain't enough
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw your hands up
Tell security we bout to tear this club up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, pocket full of green
Girl, you know I love the way you shake it in them jeans
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw ya hands up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, bottoms up (up, up)



My vision's blurred, my words slurred
Its jam packed, a million girls
And I ain't tryin to lead em
We drunk so let me be your alcohol hero
Callin' all the girls, do you hear me?
All around the world, city to city
Cheers to the girls, throw a deuce to the guys
Now I got a chicken and a goose in the ride
Gettin' loose in the ride
Hatin a** ***** you can move to the move to the move to the side



Bottoms up, bottoms up, ey, what's in ya cup
Got a couple bottles, but a couple ain't enough
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw your hands up
Tell security we bout to tear this club up

Bottoms up, bottoms up, pocket full of green
Girl, you know I love the way you shake it in them jeans
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw ya hands up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, bottoms up (up, up)



*i don't want to write all of Nicki's part lol*


Bottoms up, bottoms up, ey, what's in ya cup
Got a couple bottles, but a couple ain't enough
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw your hands up
Tell security we bout to tear this club up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, pocket full of green
Girl, you know I love the way you shake it in them jeans
Bottoms up, bottoms up, throw ya hands up
Bottoms up, bottoms up, bottoms up (up, up)

Bottoms up, Bottoms up, Bottoms up, Bottoms up, Bottoms up



i love that song ;)

Today we learned

about bullying. I forgot what I was standing up for...this inspired me so much. It made me see things so much differently! There are people out there who always have it worse than us and we may not realize it...but they do. we can do something to stop it. I'll have more on the subject later (:

Song of the Day!

Okay, it's amazing :D This song, it's by B.o.B and it's called Magic. ♥♥♥


I got the magic in me
Every time I touch that track it turns into gold
Everybody knows I’ve got the magic in me
When I hit the flow the girls come snappin’ at me
Now everybody wants some presto magic

Magic, magic, magic
Magic, magic, magic
Magic, magic, magic
I got the magic in me!


These tricks that I’ll attempt will blow your mind
Pick a verse, any verse, I’ll hypnotize you with every line
I’ll need a volunteer, how about you, with the eyes?
Come on down to the front, and stand right here and don’t be shy
I’ll have you time-travellin’, have your mind babblin’
People tryna inherit the skill so they askin’ me
Even David Blaine had to go and take some classes, and
I see Mindfreak like, “What’s up man, what’s happenin’? ”
So come one, come all, and see the show tonight
Prepare to be astounded, no Ghost or Poltergeist
You know I’m no Pinocchio, I’ve never told a lie
So call me Mr. Magic Man, I float on Cloud 9

I got the magic in me (I got the magic, baby)
Every time I touch that track it turns into gold (Yes it turns to gold)
Everybody knows I’ve got the magic in me (I got the magic, baby)
When I hit the flow the girls come snappin’ at me (They be snappin’ baby)
Now everybody wants some presto magic


Magic, magic, magic
Magic, magic, magic
Magic, magic, magic
I got the magic in me!

Well take a journey into my mind
You’ll see why it’s venom I rhyme
Stay on the road, so I call my mama when I got time
I hit the stage, go insane, then jump into that crowd
See, see, when I rhyme I flow on the beat like pidda-dow-dow
See I deceive you with my intergalactic ether
I sing just like Aretha, so respect me like I’m Caesar
I kick it like Adidas, flowin’ sticky like adhesive
Be cautious, ’cause what I be on’ll leave you with amnesia
I break all the rules like Evel Knievel
It’s a spectacular show, ’cause my heart pumps diesel
So whatever you saying, it don’t entertain my ego
I do this everyday, Hocus Pocus is my steelo

I got the magic in me (I got the magic, baby)
Every time I touch that track it turns into gold (Yes it turns to gold)
Everybody knows I’ve got the magic in me (I got the magic, baby)
When I hit the flow the girls come snappin’ at me (They be snappin’ baby)
Now everybody wants some presto magic

Magic, magic, magic
Magic, magic, magic
Magic, magic, magic
I got the magic in me!


You can listen to this song here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HFyFDSJsxTM

Amazing

There is nothing to describe this article. No word except miraculous, amazing, magical. TWLOHA (To Write Love on Her Arms) is the name. I can't really describe how much I love this, to know that miracles can happen (: I will try my best to make people happy, I didn't realize how amazing I had it until this article. Read the introduction *and* article here: http://www.twloha.com/vision/

To Write Love On Her Arms
Pedro the Lion is loud in the speakers, and the city waits just outside our open windows. She sits and sings, legs crossed in the passenger seat, her pretty voice hiding in the volume. Music is a safe place and Pedro is her favorite. It hits me that she won't see this skyline for several weeks, and we will be without her. I lean forward, knowing this will be written, and I ask what she'd say if her story had an audience. She smiles. "Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."

I would rather write her a song, because songs don't wait to resolve, and because songs mean so much to her. Stories wait for endings, but songs are brave things bold enough to sing when all they know is darkness. These words, like most words, will be written next to midnight, between hurricane and harbor, as both claim to save her.

Renee is 19. When I meet her, cocaine is fresh in her system. She hasn't slept in 36 hours and she won't for another 24. It is a familiar blur of coke, pot, pills and alcohol. She has agreed to meet us, to listen and to let us pray. We ask Renee to come with us, to leave this broken night. She says she'll go to rehab tomorrow, but she isn't ready now. It is too great a change. We pray and say goodbye and it is hard to leave without her.

She has known such great pain; haunted dreams as a child, the near-constant presence of evil ever since. She has felt the touch of awful naked men, battled depression and addiction, and attempted suicide. Her arms remember razor blades, fifty scars that speak of self-inflicted wounds. Six hours after I meet her, she is feeling trapped, two groups of "friends" offering opposite ideas. Everyone is asleep. The sun is rising. She drinks long from a bottle of liquor, takes a razor blade from the table and locks herself in the bathroom. She cuts herself, using the blade to write "FUCK UP" large across her left forearm.

The nurse at the treatment center finds the wound several hours later. The center has no detox, names her too great a risk, and does not accept her. For the next five days, she is ours to love. We become her hospital and the possibility of healing fills our living room with life. It is unspoken and there are only a few of us, but we will be her church, the body of Christ coming alive to meet her needs, to write love on her arms.

She is full of contrast, more alive and closer to death than anyone I've known, like a Johnny Cash song or some theatre star. She owns attitude and humor beyond her 19 years, and when she tells me her story, she is humble and quiet and kind, shaped by the pain of a hundred lifetimes. I sit privileged but breaking as she shares. Her life has been so dark yet there is some soft hope in her words, and on consecutive evenings, I watch the prettiest girls in the room tell her that she's beautiful. I think it's God reminding her.

I've never walked this road, but I decide that if we're going to run a five-day rehab, it is going to be the coolest in the country. It is going to be rock and roll. We start with the basics; lots of fun, too much Starbucks and way too many cigarettes

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Thursday night she is in the balcony for Band Marino, Orlando's finest. They are indie-folk-fabulous, a movement disguised as a circus. She loves them and she smiles when I point out the A&R man from Atlantic Europe, in town from London just to catch this show.

She is in good seats when the Magic beat the Sonics the next night, screaming like a lifelong fan with every Dwight Howard dunk. On the way home, we stop for more coffee and books, Blue Like Jazz and (Anne Lamott's) Travelling Mercies.

On Saturday, the Taste of Chaos tour is in town and I'm not even sure we can get in, but doors do open and minutes after parking, we are on stage for Thrice, one of her favorite bands. She stands ten feet from the drummer, smiling constantly. It is a bright moment there in the music, as light and rain collide above the stage. It feels like healing. It is certainly hope.

Sunday night is church and many gather after the service to pray for Renee, this her last night before entering rehab. Some are strangers but all are friends tonight. The prayers move from broken to bold, all encouraging. We're talking to God but I think as much, we're talking to her, telling her she's loved, saying she does not go alone. One among us knows her best. Ryan sits in the corner strumming an acoustic guitar, singing songs she's inspired.

After church our house fills with friends, there for a few more moments before goodbye. Everyone has some gift for her, some note or hug or piece of encouragement. She pulls me aside and tells me she would like to give me something. I smile surprised, wondering what it could be. We walk through the crowded living room, to the garage and her stuff.

She hands me her last razor blade, tells me it is the one she used to cut her arm and her last lines of cocaine five nights before. She's had it with her ever since, shares that tonight will be the hardest night and she shouldn't have it. I hold it carefully, thank her and know instantly that this moment, this gift, will stay with me. It hits me to wonder if this great feeling is what Christ knows when we surrender our broken hearts, when we trade death for life.

As we arrive at the treatment center, she finishes: "The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope."

I have watched life come back to her, and it has been a privilege. When our time with her began, someone suggested shifts but that is the language of business. Love is something better. I have been challenged and changed, reminded that love is that simple answer to so many of our hardest questions. Don Miller says we're called to hold our hands against the wounds of a broken world, to stop the bleeding. I agree so greatly.

We often ask God to show up. We pray prayers of rescue. Perhaps God would ask us to be that rescue, to be His body, to move for things that matter. He is not invisible when we come alive. I might be simple but more and more, I believe God works in love, speaks in love, is revealed in our love. I have seen that this week and honestly, it has been simple: Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess, give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom, tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true.

We are only asked to love, to offer hope to the many hopeless. We don't get to choose all the endings, but we are asked to play the rescuers. We won't solve all mysteries and our hearts will certainly break in such a vulnerable life, but it is the best way. We were made to be lovers bold in broken places, pouring ourselves out again and again until we're called home.

I have learned so much in one week with one brave girl. She is alive now, in the patience and safety of rehab, covered in marks of madness but choosing to believe that God makes things new, that He meant hope and healing in the stars. She would ask you to remember.



Isn't it amazing? I pledge to help the broken and the torn, to tell them the truth, to give them hope. To write love on their arms. Will you?


~Emily

Song of the Day (:

This is one of my favorite songs everr, it just cheers me up and it's something to dance to everyday. It's one of those songs I will never get tired of ;) The Song of the Day is The Opposite of Adults by Chiddy Bang ;)



And yo I once was a kid all I had was a dream
mo' money no problems, when I get it imma pile it up
Yeah I'm dope wonderbread we can toast
So fresh how we flow, everybody get their style from us
I once was a kid with the other little kids
Now I'm whippin' up shows and 'em fans goin' wild wid us
Tell mummy I'm sorry
This life is a party

Remember you was a kid
Reminisce days of the innocence
Now it's Chiddy Bang, google me in the images
Follow me, follow me I'm the leader
And when I park cars I don't pay for the meter
I remember I was younger as a kid it was the best
I used touch on all the pretty girls at recess
I'm at my peak yes, I won't leave yet
Serial style, cereal aisle need Chex
I can make these rappers run like a hard drill
Rock band show you how the guitar feel
And I could care less how y'all feel
I got the flow to make a b**** do a cartwheel
This is that good just pop it and relax bro
And you can get it free don't worry 'bout the tax though
And Xaphoone, thank you for the fuck
But I play a Ron Bergundy I anchor on the track like that

And yo I once was a kid all I had was a dream
mo' money no problems, when I get it imma pile it up
Yeah I'm dope wonderbread we can toast
So fresh how we flow, everybody get their style from us
I once was a kid with the other little kids
Now I'm whippin' up shows and 'em fans goin' wild wid us
Tell mummy I'm sorry
This life is a party
I'm never growing up

Can I please get a little bit of knowledge
Somebody tell Roth that I don't love college
'Cause the real world's kinda like Real World
And it's drama so you are Svetlana and I'm just a rhymer
Swimmin' in the water tryin' to dodge the piranhas and fly to Bahamas
Pretty little momma, Chiddy in the spot
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Where you at pretty lady show me what you got
They say why you rappin' for the kids for
I said my clothes come fitted, the Lids store
This summer you can catch me on a big tour
I'm high grade, I think they need to quiz more
Let me get wit ya, don't let the kid hit ya
I'm the photo album Valletta has, big picture
The rule is, the dude is, so up, so chuck I'm a cool kid

And yo I once was a kid all I had was a dream
mo' money no problems, when I get it imma pile it up
Yeah I'm dope wonderbread we can toast
So fresh how we flow, everybody get their style from us
I once was a kid with the other little kids
Now I'm whippin' up shows and 'em fans goin' wild wid us
Tell mummy I'm sorry
This life is a party
I'm never growing up

And yo I once was a kid all I had was a dream
mo' money no problems, when I get it imma pile it up
Yeah I'm dope wonderbread we can toast
So fresh how we flow, everybody get their style from us
I once was a kid with the other little kids
Now I'm whippin' up shows and 'em fans goin' wild wid us
Tell mummy I'm sorry
This life is a party
I'm never growing up

I got the lyrics from an online lyric site so I don't think they're right but listen to the song here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EJsd-V9lsJM It's more Hip Hop but I am absolutely in love with it :)

Love Like Crazy by Lee Brice (SOD)

They called him crazy when they started out
Said seventeen's too young to know what loves about
They've been together fifty-eight years now
That’s crazy

He brought home sixty-seven bucks a week
He bought a little 2 bedroom house on Maple Street
Where she blessed him with six more mouths to feed
Yeah that’s crazy

Just ask him how he did it; he'll say pull up a seat
It'll only take a minute, to tell you everything
Be your best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I love you
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense
Never let your prayin' knees get lazy
And love like crazy

They called him crazy when he quit his job
Said them home computers, boy they'll never take off
He sold his one man shop to Microsoft
They paid like crazy

Just ask him how he made it
He'll tell you faith and sweat
And the heart of a faithful woman,
Who never let him forget

Be your best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I love you
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common sense
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy

Always treat your woman like a lady
Never get too old to call her baby
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy

They called him crazy when they started out
They've been together fifty-eight years now

Ain't that crazy?

Song of the Day

Sara Beth ~ Rascal Flatts








SaraBeth is scared to death
To hear what the doctor will say
She hasn't been well
Since the day that she fell
And the bruise it just wont go away

So she sits and she waits with her mother and dad
And flips through an old magazine
'Til the nurse with a smile stands at the door
And says "Will you please come with me?"

SaraBeth is scared to death
Cause the doctor just told her the news
Between the red cells and white
Something's not right
But we're gonna take care of you

Six chances in ten it wont come back again
But with the therapy we're gonna try
It's just been approved it's the strongest there is
But I think we caught it in time
SaraBeth closes her eyes

And she dreams she's dancin' around and around
Without any cares
And her very first love
Is holding her close
And the soft wind is blowing her hair

SaraBeth is scared to death
as she sits holding her mom
cause It would be a mistake
For someone to take
A girl with no hair to the prom

For just this morning right there on her pillow
Was the cruelest of any surprise
Yet She cried when she gathered it all in her hands
The proof that she couldn't deny
SaraBeth closes her eyes

And she dreams she's dancin' around and around
With out any cares
And her very first love
Was holding her close
And the soft wind was blowing her hair

It's quarter to seven
that boy's at the door
Her daddy ushers him in
And when he takes off his cap they all start to cry
Cause this morning where his hair had been
Softly she touches just skin

They go dancin' around and around
Without any cares
And her very first true love
Is holding her close
And for a moment she isn't scared
Ohhhhhh.

Song Of The Day, Picture

3OH!3 is amazing. There's your clue. The song is 3OH!3 ~ R.I.P.






This town used to be a pretty place to stay
A place to stop up on the highway
But all of those things changed on a day
You packed up your bags
And you ran away

All they say it's how you've changed
Everyday I stay the same
So you can keep the necklace that I gave to you
I'll keep the sh*tty tattoos

I can see it from the other side
The grass is in a way thats green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I can see it from the other side
The grass is in a way thats green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I count the empty bottles upon the bar
But I give up I can't count that far
The lights in this place are too dim to see
They're kickin' me out
It's a quarter past three

They tell me you're all I got
I just need these dreams to stop
You can keep the necklace that I gave to you
I'll keep the sh*tty tattoos

I can see it from the other side
The grass is in a way thats green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I can see it from the other side
The grass is in a way thats green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

In the back of the car
On the way to your home
In a pouring rain
On a side of the road
In the light of the street
In the recline of the seat
You told me I should move on

In the back of the car
On the way to your home
In a pouring rain
On a side of the road
In the light of the street
In the recline of the seat
You told me I should move on

I can see it from the other side
The grass is in a way thats green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me

I can see it from the other side
The grass is in a way thats green
The house is burned to ashes
I'm no longer in between
R.I.P.
R.I.P.
You and me


This song makes me teary.

Song of the Day

The song. Is just...amazing. I love it so much, I would love love love to have Taylor Swift's new album. Her new style of music is so great♥♥ She's matured so much, don't you agree?


Anyways, the song is Dear John by well, you know :D



Long were the nights,
When the days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps,
Prayin' the floor won't fall through, again,
My mother accused me of losing my mind,
But I swore I was fine,



You paint me a blue sky and go back,
And turn it to rain,
And I lived in your chess game,
But you changed the rules every day,
Wonderin which version of you,
I might get on the phone, tonight,
Well I stopped pickin' up,
And this song is to let you know why,



Dear John,
I see it all now that you're gone.
Don't you think I was too young,
To be messed with,
The girl in the dress,
Cried the whole way home,
I shoulda known.




Well maybe it's me,
And my blind optimism to blame,
Maybe its you and your sick need,
To give love then take it away,
And you'll add my name,
To your long list of traitors,
Who don't understand,
And I'll look back in regret,
How I ignored when they said,
Run as fast as you can.



Dear John,
I see all it now that you're gone,
Don't you think I was too young,
To be messed with,
The girl in the dress,
Cried the whole way home.



Dear John,
I see it all now it was wrong,
Don't you think nineteen's too young,
To be played by your dark twisted games,
When I loved you so,
I shoulda known.



You are an expert at sorry,
And keeping lines blurry,
And never impressed by me,
Acing your tests,
All the girls that you run dry,
Have tired lifeless eyes,
Cuz you burned them out,
But I took your matches,
Before fire could catch me,
So don't look now,
I'm shining like fireworks,
Over your sad empty town,

Oh woah oh



Dear John,
I see all it now that you're gone,
Don't you think I was too young,
To be messed with the girl in the dress,
Cried the whole way home.
I see all it now that you're gone,
Don't you think I was too young,
To be messed with,
The girl in the dress,
Wrote you a song.
You should've known,
You shoulda known,
Don't you think I was too young,
You shoulda known.

Song I Wrote *important, I guess.*

So, I wrote this song. You ever have one of those days where a certain thing just can't leave your mind no matter what? Today and yesterday were one of those days.

So, here's my song/poem thing I wrote:

Don't teach me how to fly,
If you're gonna keep me on the ground,
Don't tell me you love me,
Unless you really mean it,
Don't say we'll get through this,
If you don't believe it.



It's like rain,
Is falling on my floor,
I'm forced to my knees,
Cryin' and powering the storm,
Why can't you answer my pleas?
It feels like you don't care anymore,
Oh, yeah,
I want you back
That's all I'm askin' for.



You're sayin' it's over,
You're sayin' we're through,
You say I'm too pretentious,
But it hurts,
'Cause I rely on you,
Now, I'm pacing the floor,
Thinking what do I live for anymore,
I need you today and the next and the next day,



It's like rain,
Is falling on my floor,
I'm forced to my knees,
Cryin' and powering the storm,
Why can't you answer my pleas?
It feels like you don't care anymore,
Oh, yeah,
I want you back,
That's all I'm asking for.



Now, I'm left with regrets,
Not knowing what to do next,
Hoping you'll call and ask,
To try again,
Please, will you give me a second chance?



It's like rain,
Is falling on my floor,
I'm forced to my knees,
Cryin' and powering the storm,
Why won't you answer my please?
It feels like you don't care anymore,
Oh, yeah,
I want you back,
That's all I'm asking for.



I want you back,
That's all I'm asking for...

Lack of Posts, Song of the Day

I'm going to have posts up really really soon! I just wasn't in the greatest mood these past few weeks, but now I feel amazing :) I hope you all are having a good school yearr! I got all A's :D Yay! Butt... thought I'd do a Song of the Day, no? :)

Ke$ha - Backstabber

Back, back, backstabber
Back, back, backstabber
Back, back, backstabber

Bored, stoned, sitting in your basement all alone
'Cause your little conversation's got around
And look at what we all found out
Lookie here we all found out

That you have got a set of loose lips
Twisting stories all because you're jealous
Now I know exactly what you're all about
And this is what you're all about

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a s*t talker
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Run your mouth more than anyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Back, back, backstabber
Talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk, talk

I'm sick and tired of hearing all about my life
From other bitches with all of your lies
Wrapped up so tight, so maybe you should shut your mouth
Shut your f*ing mouth

Honestly, I think it's kinda funny that
You waste your breath talking about me
Got me feeling kinda special really
This is what you're all about

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a shit talker
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Run your mouth more than anyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Katie's to the left just rippin' my style
D*n, Jeanie why you gotta tell the secrets about my *** life?
All I ever did was drive your broke a** around
Pick you up, take you out when your car broke down

Back, back, backstabber
Stabber, stabber
Back, back, backstabber

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Oh girl, you're such a s*t talker
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Girl, you're such a backstabber
Taking and twisting it down, you're so manipulating
Run your mouth more than anyone I've ever known
And everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Talk, talk, talk
Back, back, backstabber

Taking and twisting it down, you're so manipulating
Girl, talk, talk, you're looking like a lunatic
Everybody knows it
And everybody knows it

Everybody knows, yeah
You're looking like a lunatic
And everybody knows, yeah
Everybody knows

Scent of Desperation Pages 3-5

I walk through the halls once again as the day drones on, at least it's safer here. Predictable is the word... I always feared facing my mother after school everyday. She was the pitch black, evil, darkness in my already dark world.

I can't be myself here though, or anywhere for that matter. I don't even know who I am. On the outside my mother and I seem inseparable. The perfect mother and daughter relationship anyone would want to have... especially me.

In a closed door, my mother wasn't what she appeared to be. She fed me, yes. She put a roof above my head, yes. Although, she didn't provide me of new clothing, everyone believed her. She beat me...



Yes.

No one knew though. Because people are bleak. They are inconsiderate, robotic. Two- faced. And a lot more.

How could they know, though? It was up to me to keep the good, false image of a hardworking-mother-and-daughter-relationship alive. My mother is hardworking. She loves me...I know she does. Although...not like a daughter. She love me like children loves popscicles on hot summer days. I hate popscicles. It's winter year round in my world...as long as the door stays locked.

I heard the faint sound of shuffling feet and a ringing bell. Time to go home...

Hearing the buses roar to life as I made my way down the buses depressed me. This was the darkest part of the day. Knowing what I was going home to, knowing what I was going to face.

I shoved myself into the back. That way, no one would stare at me, no one would judge. As I seat myself, I gently open the newest book on my reading list: Pendragon: The Merchant of Death, scanning through the worn, neglected pages. Reading is my best friend, it helps me escape from my black hole into a sunny, cloudless, blue. Boy, did I love it there. I only wish I could stay.

Pain : Emily Owens

Screech to the night sky,
Feel the pressure pounding your lungs,
Let them bleed away the sorrow,
Let them screech until sight of the sun.

Let the sparrow caw it's anguished cry,
Feel the tears fall down your face,
Sing into the night wind,
Because tomorrow holds a worse fate.

Feel the innocence fade away,
Away with all that's good,
Cover your cold arms staining blue,
Try to convince yourself you are not misunderstood.

For Mrs T! :D

Scent of Desperation pages 1-2

I walk through the halls, staring straight into the eyes averting my chilled over gaze. No one is my friend here, everyone is an enemy, easy prey. I've only had one friend before. My dad. My life was once a four-year-old fantasy...

I wanted to be a model when I was little. My daddy made that dream come true. The memory gave me the most pride and hope a four-year-old could ask for. Daddy told me to put on my Easter dress, my best one. It was blue, a white lace fringe at the bottom and a white collar to match. Ducks covered the blue dress. Different colors, sizes and shapes...all ducks.

Momma held me close that day, when we were a family. She had small elegant fingers that braided my hair, intertwining them into the dark brown jungle to form something completely wonderous.

We took pictures then, silly, funny, sweet, quirky, anything you could think of. That day was a day full of happiness, hopefulness, but that day is but a memory. Gone like a seashell washing from the shore into the blackness of the waves... hope is but a memory.

Back in reality, I continue my walk to class. Slowly I unpack what I could scavenge from previous school years. Even a few pieces of paper in a journal were a lot to find this year. Suddenly, the teacher and I both sweep our eyes to the surface, locking them together. What did she want to say?

"Miranda, where are your supplies from the supply list? Not to be rude but your papers are gone, your pencils are almost to small to manage any more use and your binders aren't even the correct size."

I can only manage a squeaky, "Mom couldn't get them." then force my jell-oey legs to a desk in the back.

I could melt at any moment. I could turn into slush, just like melted snow. I won't. Hiding my mother's awful secret is vital. All I have to hide it with is my clothes, and my own little twisted innocent poker face. Although, the question is....why do I try?

Song Of The Day

I dream a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasting away

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words they have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life

--------------------------------

Not explaining this. Sorry.

Song of the Day

The song of the day is If I Were A Boy by Beyonce. Kelsey, this one's for you ^^ :)

It's a private thing haha

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Scent of Desperation Prologue

The pain of a loved ones abuse is worse than anything imaginable. Heartbreak doesn't make a crack in the glass wall of despair, I've had it. Nothing is worse. Mothers....they're suppossed to be loving. Gentle, caring....right? Well, my life is different.


I clutched my back pack like it was my security blanket. The red velvet feel comforted me, it's zipper in my hand, safe and secure. Kids strolled by, analyzing my frail looks and forming a sour look to their faces. They looked like they were sucking on a lemon. The faces screeched out to me "Too sour!! Where's the sugar?!" Yes, I was wearing a tight blue sweatshirt (What was it, three years old now?) with Eyeore from 'Winnie the Pooh'....in the summer. Bold and proud he stood, standing out of the crowd. The kids didn't know why I dressed out of weather...but I had my reasons.

I didn't feel normal. I had tight clothing, my hair was frizzy and dirty and my body frail as if it was bent too much it could snap like a twig. My blond hair didn't mix with the emo black and chocolate brunnette hair of the fifth grade. They had long, flowing hair, alond with the right school clothes. The right tees, jeans, belts, everything I had ever wanted. I wanted to be them, some say they are 'preps' , snobby and milk curdling, I didn't care. They had everything while I had nothing, that was all that was needed for me to desire such a high status. The thing is, I wasn't different from those girls. In appearence, yes. I got good grades, kept up with my things, minded my own business (Okay, one thing.), I was a good lil' girl. It wasn't me...it was my mother.

Picture: The Feeling Is Mutual

Or at least I wish it was... ♥

Love,

It doesn't last forever. It doesn't keep you flying high.
When you need that love the most you see waving goodbye.
In the night you hear it's whisper, a taunt of what could've been.
The last thing you can do is say "Remember when?"
Remember when you got along, remember when you laughed.
Hold onto the moments you lost and never look back.
Love tears all things down when you need it most.
Love lights it's match to make a fire just to watch you roast.
But yet, you forgive the heartbreak, yet you try again.
Knowing that it'll never last,
They won't stay your best friend...


Just a poem I wrote today, nothing special. Hope you guys liked it. ♥

Less Updating

I will be updating less throughout the school year than you would expect of me. You will all see why soon enough!

I Love You

I need a way to say what I feel,
For you to realize my feelings,
They grow stronger away from you,
Because the scars of your love won't start healing.

Your face creeps in my mind every day,
I venture away from reality,
I count down these last few days,
Hoping you will realize my loving.

This poem fails. I shouldv'e known xD I haven't written in a LONG time!

NEXT! I just wrote this one...summer has been quite a task.

Heartbreak

The tears stream down my saddened face,
As I feel your last embrace.
Knowing that this won't last,
Wondering why time had to pass.

Holding you closer afraid to part,
But I'm not sure if I should trust my heart.
Soaking my shirt as I'm down on my knees,
Asking forgiveness, just one simple plea.

I pray for you, I pray for us,
Wondering why we had to make a big fuss,
Hoping we can heal the wounds,
Hoping you know me dedication is true.

I use the same words a lot -_- Oh well!

Things Change and So Do People (Chapter 9)

She darted through the wooded forest. This time, not for her own sake, but for her friends. Her best friend. The one that was with her through thick and thin when she needed him, the one that needed her now. With that, she sped through the trees hastily. Searching high and low she found no trace of life.
Jesse stumble to the ground, her steam had drifted into paper thin air. Slowly, unpeacefully, she glided into a heavy sleep.

Run,run, fast my child,
Fore the big, great wolf is savage and wild
Glide,glide, far my child,
Find a safe haven,
You'll be okay for a while.

Her eyes shot open. Her mothers old nursery rhyme spun through her head like a bullet through the skull. It was a lie. Was everything about wolves being horrible and blood thirsty...a lie? Light gleaming from the treetops showed the entrence of morning.

Today was the day she would find Tarrzar....and them.

Quietly, Jesse listened. Tracing the forest in her mind. Listening...for a pawstep, a whimper, something. Then, she found exactly what she was scavenging for. Tarrzar must have read her mind. A howl. She had a sign!

Shew dashed west.

Child Abuse

As many of you know, I am now a strong supporter of NO CHILD ABUSE. I wrote this poem to express my concern.

Silent abuse through the night,
The childs eyes show the fright,
Afraid of when the bomb will blow,
Searching for answers high and low.

Screams pierce through the moonlit sky,
You can feel the tears drop,
And the abusers guilty pleasure,
Is knowing they won't stop.

Scars of all size and shape,
Forced into her arm,
Watchers eyes show suscpicion in him,
But his show no alarm.

AN UPDATE!!!

Shannon commented on it! I can update again! Yay! I can write Things Change and So Do People again! Yay! So, for right now, I will post some of my art I have drawn. I will not post the Rainbow Lineart that is traced, that is for facebook only.

First pic: Lurifax, Entered for a contest but didn't win. Wanted to post it though. Because I like the pose xD Not for the use of ANYONE.

2: This is rainbow lineart. It's of my character Cecestay. It's her 'party look'. DO NOT STEAL.

3: My friend on dA and I's character! Our 'sister' characters! DON'T STEAL! For OUR use only!

4: My most recent personal drawing, my new fursona <3 Her name is Aphrodite. This is the last picture I drew before all the rainbow lineart I did on facebook.

5: Alma Bella, also entered for the contest. FOR NO ONE's USE!

Things Change and So Do People (Chapter 8)

OMG guess what??? There's a vocabulary word in thissss!


Check out this group on Shelfari <33 Jesus is worth your time! http://www.shelfari.com/groups/58706/about

Thoughts swam through her mind, unable to keep away the curiosity.
"What will we do about them?"
"I don't know" Tarrzar answered distantly. The sun was low in the horizon as they stopped.
"Should I go get some food?" Jesse asked worriedly.
"Yes. Food would be nice."
Jesse ventured through the woods towards a calm, sparkling lake. Fish were plentiful and plump. Jesse could only see one glowing, white wolf hunting.
Suddenly, bushes rattled near her. Had the clan planned to strike again so soon? Were they just waiting for her to be alone? Pups! Small wolf pups pounced out of the foliage. Jesse strode toward the small pups, keeping her pace small and gentle.
Reaching her hand out, the pups sniffed, kissing her hand gently.
Without warning, the pups dashed past her eyes, their own clouded by a patch of fear.
A few hours later, Jesse was struggling to come back to the campsite with the fish she had hunted. As she approached the far hill where Tarrzar lay past the trees, she dropped the fish and walked back to Tarrzar. As she reached his location, she gasped. Tarrzar was gone!

They were waiting for him to be alone.

How could it happen? Why did they take him? Did they imprison him? Or kill him? The image flashed through her mind. The cold dark night, whimpers of Tarrzar in the distant but his eyes still showing no emotion. The wolves walking toward him were shadowed in the trees, suddenly appearing, red eyes, blackened fur. Running. Then, nothing.
Jesse's feet stirred, realizing she was running, she ran faster. Dashing through the thickets of trees, mud staining her unwashed face. All she wanted...
had to do was find Tarrzar. Now.


I know this chapter is kind of boring but oh well.

I won't be updating anymore until I get comments xDD Byeeee

I'm writing poems for whenever I actually feel something deep :] I might have a few coming up soooo comment!

~E

Update

Hi! Okay, so, I know I haven't written a SENTENCE for Things Change and So Do People in a WHILE so expect a chapter or two in the next few days. Poems should be swarming in too! I'm doing summer reading a lot, also! I'm reading Fallen right now. Here's my list even though I know you're not interested in what I'm reading xD

1.Fallen
2.Warriors:Fire and Ice
3.Lucinda's Mountain
4.Harry Potter and the Order of the Pheonix
5.Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince (whichever comes first xDD)
6.Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
7.Twilight
8.New Moon
9.Eclipse (which I saw last night, a-ma-zing!)
10.Breaking Dawn

and that's basically my summer reading list! Just wanted to give you guys an update so hasta lapasta!

~E

Poem I Wrote...

Okay, I need to know something you guys: Is my writing getting worse? I used to be able to write these big long poems but now they're short, undescriptive. Are they still creative? Just let me know if I have improved or something.

We've been away from each other so long now
We're like two people in a big abundant crowd

How do I keep going while I can feel myself slowing the pace
The tears on my cheek scream that I need to see your face

Hope is crashing down, I need to know where you are
I need to know you're okay but maybe I should lower the bar

I miss you with all my might
Without you all I can do to stay in one piece is hug myself tight....



Like I said, not long at all and not as descriptive as my others. Bleh. Just lemme know,k? (:

~E

I MISSS YOUUUU

I hate it now! I've come back from the beach and now that I have nothing else to think about I think about my friends! I miss you all so much! I miss Corgii,Jordan,Shannon,everyone!!!! I miss my awesome teacher toooo! I think I'll draw something idk. I miss you guys! I'm writing a poem right now so I guess I'll update in the next few days. for right now, here's a little song that lifts my spirits a little:


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yIivo36TlAI&feature=related

Remember how you used to say
You couldn't wait till tomorrow for a brand new day
no fuss when ya had to ride the bus
You just add a little blush
To paralyze your school crush

Now you're older and the weight is on your shoulder
Make the world a little colder
No more hidin in the old day
Be strong
Don't you give up hope
It will get hard
Life's like a jump rope

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
Cause it will get hard
Remember life's like a jump rope

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Cause it will get hard

There'll be a bump and there will be a bruise
There'll be alarms and there will be a snooze
There'll be a path that you will have to choose
There'll be a win and there will be a lose and

You gotta hold your head up high and
Watch all the negative go by
Don't ever be ashamed to cry
You go ahead
Cause life's like a jump rope


Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Remember life's like a jump rope

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Come on


I want to tell you that everything will be okay
That everything will eventually turn itself to gold
So keep pushing through it all
Don't follow, lead the way
Don't lose yourself or your hope
Cause life's like a jump rope


Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah

You stomp your feet so hard you make it pound
Raise the bottom to the top
And now we're never coming down

Up down stomp your feet spin around
Clap hands to the rhythm
Then you slip down

You stomp your feet so hard you make it pound
Raise the bottom to the top
And now we're never coming down

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Remember life's like a jump rope

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
It will get hard
Cause it will get hard

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah
Life's like a jump rope

Up down
Up down
Up down
Up down yeah

Whoa oh
Cause life's like a jump rope



makes me want to write like that someday also <3 Anyways, enjoy I guess


~E

What Happens Now?

Yes, this is a vent. Most of my poems usually are. I don't know what to call it because I don't want anyone to find the reason why I wrote it (although, it may be obvious). I don't want to give out the inspiration or anything. The only thing you need to know is that it's a vent.

Now we've grown apart,
It's time to make a fresh start,
Now that the happy colors fade,
I won't fight another day.

I don't feel like I need you,
Guess the deal is done,
It's time to take away the pain,
It's time to finally move on.

Yes, I'll remember our laughs,
Yes, I'll miss them dearly,
But I've already moved on,
Can't you see that, clearly?


I know I'll probably regret posting this. Hope you guys are having a good summer, love you guys ♥

~E

PS Mrs T. please check my last post.

Dear Friends,

Hello, hello, hello! Okay, I just wanted to write a little someting for everyone ♥ You guys have been the best friends ever. I've moved a lot and even though I was new and we all thought of each other as preps in the beginning, you guys welcomed everyone with open arms. I want to thank Mrs Thompson the most. Mrs. T, you helped us throughout the year. You made us a big part of who we are today. ♥ (there WILL be lots of hearts BD) You helped me accept a lot of things and you exposed us to a fun way of learning. You also helped me grasp a deeper concept of reading. I welcome every book now and if I don't like it, that's okay. You're like a second mom to everyone and an amazing teacher ♥ We fish egg you (:

Next, Jordan ♥, my gleek. I love you buddy. You keep my secrets and I know you're always there for me when I need you. You're understanding of things I can't tell you, or anyone, because it's family business. I'll miss you so much over the summer. Hopefully you can come over ♥ My mom even likes you ♥. That's very rare ♥ You're a great person, Popcorn. Love you ♥

Shannon, we are best friends. Even though we are fighting right now (over something stupid xD) I know we'll pull through, we always do. We both have our obsessions and opinions and that's what makes us unique (and why we fight xD). Best friends fight, right? Anyways, Glampires are the best species of vampire ever xD. I love you, buddy. ♥

Corgiiiii! Emolaylay will miss you sooo much over the summer! Maybe, when you come back, we'll have our own party (since you will always miss my birthday xD ) Our song is awesome and true. You're one of the greatest friends anyone could have. We love pancakes xD Lana loves them too. The colours of the rainbow shine so bright, everytime I look into your eyes. It's the colours of the rainbow that feed my soul, over and over, just like you do ♥ I love how that became our song by accident. Emolaylay loves you so much ♥

Kelsey, we may not have talked a lot but I know you're a great friend. I wish we could talk more. Even though you and Katy have your problems right now, just put on your big girl shoes xD You two will get through it. I hope you and Dalton do well xD Lovebirds ♥ Anywho, I hope we keep in touch over the summer ♥ Love you friend ♥

Kt, you're super xD I know that's cheesy but that's why we're friends. I remember in 1st grade, we used to tell the stupidest jokes: Knock knock Who's there? Ketchup Ketchup who? Wontcha Ketchup! yeah, we were so cool xD That's one of my favorite childhood memories of us. I love you, girly.

Elizabeth, Tic-tac-to buddy ♥ We are amused easily huh? I wish we could talk more. Maybe I could get your number on facebook or something. xD Fun-size xD Remember this?: Shawty to the right, shawty to the left. I loved that xD You're so much fun to be around. Love ya buddy xD ~X

Jessica C, hahahahhahahahahahahahah, no xD I loved our talks xD They were so funny xD We steal Shannon's chips! BD Lunch is my favorite part of the day with you. It's when you talk the most! I would love to talk to you sometime this summer xD

Jessica S, you're quiet but you're so sweet! I know you probably won't read this xD but I have to do this for all of my friends cuz' you guys are that cool. 8D I want to say thank you for being there for everyone when we needed it xD I love you for that ♥ Hope to see you soon (:

Ana, we only talk on facebook but I love you anyways ♥ You're lots of fun to talk to and we like the same music xD The Pea Song, Ahhh song xD . I never get bored when I talk to you xD That's how entertaining you are ♥ We are all flying spaghetti Monsters How could you not think I wouldn't post it? xD Love you xD

Maddie, we never really talked much either. We like the same books. You introduced me to one of my favorite authors. We both like NeverShoutNever. I wish I had some way to keep in touch with you. I hope you get to read this. I love you so much ♥

Christy Misty! Random Emily loves you ♥ Did you know that? Well, it's true. You are always there for me too. I love our chats on myspace. You always make me feel so much better. You're really good at giving advice. I wish my mom liked you. You did some bad things but you can always turn your life around ♥ You're a great friend just remember your boundaries.

Kasey, I didn't really get to talk to you this year. You went to homeschooling then we just kind of stopped talking. I don't know what to say. We didn't really do anything together but you were my second friend at RCMS, that's what I'll remember you by. ♥

Katherine French, I know you probably won't read this but oh well. You and I didn't talk much either. We texted when I made you that BG on facebook. We talked on facebook too xD You were really nice when I had lunch with you during ReTests. I know we don't really talk but you were really nice and I felt the need to write you someting too. ♥ I hope we start talking more 8D

(Whew, this is long xD )

Abby, we talked over the summer. Good luck in the 9th grade buddy xD I hope we hang out more this summer, especially since we're neighbors. ILY ♥ You're a great person and one of my first friends when I moved. You made me feel better about RCMS, calmed my nerves. ♥ We don't talk much during school and stuff but I hope we can soon. ♥

Allen. Exploring Technology Systems was fun because of you. You're an awesome dude. I'll have that BG done when you need it.

Alyson, we both share the same passion, singing. I loved all state. You and Kasie made it so much fun ♥ Even though I only saw you and her on breaks, you brightened my spirits. Hope your cheerleading goes well :D

Caity, I met you during tennis. I don't think I'll try out next year xD It was very boring xD but you were really nice. Thank you for the bracelet. It means a lot knowing that you made it for me xD You're a great friend that someone would be lucky to have ♥

Carter, math was fun with you xD You made me laugh. We didn't say much to each other but we made an occasional joke or two. xD Hope to see you next year.

Cheyenne, we only talked a few times but you were fun xD When we talked we wouldn't stop xD You and Maddie were lots of fun. I love the poem you found. It was so beautiful. HAGS ♥

Diana, we were quiet towards each other. I loved talking to you on myspace xD we never ran out of things to say. Did I ever tell you I loved chu? Well, I do ^^ We sand ABC's and Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star together xD

Heather, we play basketball like girls xD Guess what? We ARE girls! xD Ball hoggers (: I'll get you someday xD ILY ♥

Kate, we didn't really get off to a good start at the beginning, did we? Well, I'm glad we're friends now xD You're really nice to people even if they aren't to you, that's what makes you special. ♥

Lauren, PE buddy ^^ Watch out for manbearpig! It's okay, I stuffed pine cones up his nose xD ILY ♥ You're fun to hang out with xD You're really funny xD Even when you don't say anything xD I wanna keep in touch this summer so send me your number xD

Megan G, You're a great person. Never forget that. Everyone HAS to love you because you're awesome like that xD We're not wierd, we have a personality. Others should try it sometime huh? xD ILY girly :D

Megan V, I have hugs to spare so here ya go *hugs* xD You were lots of fun to talk to. You helped me when I was depressed. We don't have an inside jokes but I hope we will soon friend xD

Alanie, And I was like Baby baby baby ooooohh! Don't cha just love that song? I do ♥ Dancing is fun xD Especially quietly O: You're emo.mazing.tastic. ILY♥

Zay, Math was sooo much fun with you! I love our jokes (: Member the last day? Lee, your face is stupid! People look at your face and go, "Oh, that's stupid." Photo-ography is your word xD I know you prob won't read this but you are an awesome friend who deserves this xD ILY ♥

Nick Isley, you were fun to sit next to. You're a great guy, one of my best friends. I don't know what I would do without you. You're caring and kind and most of all, funny xD I wish we could hang out but you're a guy xD *dies* . I hope to see you next year. ♥


To all others, my hands are hurting. I love you all and wish you guys have an awesome summer ♥






Wow, loooonnnnggg post. If you want a picture comment saying you wanna pic xD ILY guys! So much xD Have a Silly Summer JAGS (aw man, I sound like the news crew xD )



~Emolaylay

Our walk Is worthy of a memory <3 Even if you don't know it <3


Jordan I just wanted to say thank you for keeping it a secret ^^


Later I am uploading something IMPORTANT!!! It's for all of my friends <3 I love you guys and I already miss you <3

It Hurt When You Said That

This is a poem I wrote when one of my friends said she liked the guy that I liked...one of you knows.

It hit me like a bullet,
When you said those things to me,
But being the way I am,
I let you have him freely.

Pounding the music louder,
To get it out of my head,
Cuz' I was trying not to cry,
Hoping my thoughts had fled.

I hope you're happy,
I tried to force back the blow,
Even though you meant well,
I just can't let him go.

Things Change and So Do People (Chapter 7)

The soundless breaths of the two dreamers didn't seem to interfere with the morning's preperations, rather than the other way around. Footsteps, thoughts,awakenings,interuptions. Awake, Jesse stumbled to her feet. A trace of footprints were observed through the sleeping area. Noises...Jesse had heard them.
"Human!"
"Two-leg!" Insulted, Jesse retorted,"Who are you?!"

"We know who you are. We know what you think and we know what you did." The deep voice from the shadows was revealed, it's beholder. A muscular,black furred wolf along with a pack. He was the alpha. "And running away from daddy wasn't such a good idea."

"Why are you here?"
"We want our pack member back and you back at your twoleg place!" the wolf snarled.
"T-T-Tarrzar?"
"Up, Tarrzar!"
Tarrzar's eyes shot open. Once the scene was placed he pounced onto his paws.
"Starch, get out. No one needs, or wants, trouble. Leave us and go."
"Not so fast. The girl is not welcome here, you know that. The pack rule is no human contact."
"That's why you kicked me out!" he barked, leaping onto the pack leader.

Darkness in a soul starts small,light...still able to fight it. It's easy to see darkness in someone's eyes, the evil. That's the darkness Jesse saw through Starch, strong and indestructable.
Claws slashed about, paw connecting to face. Blood stained the forest floor. Jesse wanted to end the quarrel, the endless growling, ringing in the ears.
Taking action, she leapt onto Tarrzar's back.

"Stop!"
"I won't let them hurt you!" he growled, pouncing at his victim.
"Well, I won't let you kill yourself for me!"

The inner killer softened, faded to nothing. It was okay...for now. Tarrzar's muscles loosened in defeat.

"I'm done here."

Jesse tugged the blood stained coat and together they limped away from the tribe...and near death.

We'll Be A Dream ♥

Posts

Okay, I've written a lot this weekend and drawn a picture too! I'm uploading these because I don't really get comments unless I ask. From now on, just like last time, after these posts I will not update until I get comments.

This is a poem a wrote after Fri.

Cry self pity now,
Fail to find the strength,
Finding comfort in despair,
So you won't break.

Mad at the world,
Because you tryed so hard,
I try to help,
Helping you to soar far.

Needy like a baby,
Holding yourself together,
Pulling yourself off the ground,
So you can try to do better.

I know, short. I'm gonna start writing longer poems again but not until I can update again (after the next....three posts, I think.).

Feels Like Tonight

Inspired by Chris Daughtry's Feels Like Tonight. This was before some things happened...yeah. Hope you like it. I'm not taking requests right now. The wolves aren't very creative. Me (my left) and someone else.

A Vent...So what?

I can't believe you did this,
Can't believe you tore me down,
I needed to hear a different answer,
Not the one that shattered the ground.

I guess I knew this would happen,
Knew you would say no,
Knew you would shy away,
Then rip my heart and soul.

I didn't prepare for the heartache,
Because I thought I'd had enough,
Trying to hold back my tears,
Has proven to be tough.

What do you think it's about? Don't ask me what it's about, only one of you knows. If you can guess right, sure, I'll fess up. For now, no way. I don't know why writing always makes me feel better, though. I'm not sure why anything makes me feel better; simple things, I mena. Music, drawing, writing. They take the stress away, I guess. Hope everyone did good on the EOGs.

~E

Things Change and So Do People Chapter 6

Hello hello hello! It's been a while since I've updated Things Change and So Do People! Here it is again!! The enemy herd should make an appearence soon and then I'll update on the code character list! Enjoy chapter 6!

The moon was a silvery sheet of silk in the starry sky. The fire was violent and alive, almost violent. Jesse knew how to build a fire. Before her mom died she went to camp with her where she took a wilderness course. Everything felt invincible then...now it seemed it was falling apart.
Suddenly, she knew why her dad was the way he was. He loved, lost, and couldn't fill the hole inside. The pieces of the puzzle were forming a big, jagged picture. She knew.
"Your father seems to mean well. He just seems lost, unknowing of what to do."
"I know."
Tears streamed down her heated face. The guilt came, following with muffled sobs.
"I can't believe I left him! I should've known to ignore it! I mean, I don't know what it's like to lose someone you wanted to spend the rest of your life with! How selfish is that?!"
She whimpered. She cried...she screamed, unable to hold back the hurt.
"You didn't do the right thing, but..." Tarrzar replied," you didn't do the wrong thing either. You shouldn't have ignored your feelings about his problems. You've lost someone you loved, too."
Jesse starred. She stood and smiled. Then, she ran into Tarrzar's deep, brown fur, burying her face in it.
"Tarrzar?"
"Yes?"
"Can I stay with you?"
No answer...
"Tarrzar?"
"Yes?"
"Are you my friend?"
"...Yes."
That night, Jesse slept peacefully, covered with fur the friends slept till morning.


Hope you liked it! Comment!
~E

Another Poem

This is a poem I wrote last night. I can't tell you who it's for or what it's about (Although, you could probably tell in the poem). Hope you enjoy!

She thinks you're hiding it
I think I do too
These things are vital
Because I only think of you

She says you say I'm cool
It makes me feel complete
Maybe we should give this a try
You make me feel great

When you smile I could faint
But I'm scared to say
The Things you do to me
Or how I feel this way

I've never felt this way before
I can't prove it's true
Even though I'm pretty sure
I'm falling hard for you

That's why they call it a crush
That's why my heart beats fast
Whenever I see you
I make the seconds last...


I think SOME of you know who and what it's about. DO NOT TELL ANYONE. Love you all!
~Emolaylay

PS: Chapter 6 for Things Change and So Do People is almost done so be ready!

POEMS POEMS AND MORE PEOMS

I wrote a few poems. One of them was a request! I hope you like it Corgii (just to let you know it's not about her okay? (: )
Why is it my head spins?
You're amazing in every way
You always make me smile
Even if I'm having the worst day.

I think the best while talking to you
Even though my heart's like helium
I can't live without you it seems
I would even fulfill your every whim.

You make me feel the luckiest in the world
I could never give enough to you
You tell me anything I don't deserve to hear
Now I know my love is true

Is that sweet or what?! Okay, next poem! It turned out kinda Emo even though it was supposed to be my attempt at random rhyming and if you don't get it, I do and that's all that matters (:

Love love all the time
Hate hate hate inside
Frolic through the graveyard
Cry in the meadow
Run through that big old web
And beg the poisonous widow

Beg to die
Beg to live
Beg that guy to wipe that tear
Off your perfectly round chin

Scream with the music
Whimper in the corner
Hide your face away
Go ahead and beg

Beg to die
Beg to live
Beg that guy to wipe that tear
Off your perfectly round chin

Get on your knees
Fall to the ground
Walk through the street
And beg to be found

Beg to die
Beg to live
Beg that guy to wipe that tear
Off your perfectly round chin


I kinda love that poem. I think I was depressed when I wrote it. Zayiah said when I write poems it makes it seem like I'm scarred (like emotionally), what do you think? Do you think the poems are good? Which is your favorite? Read and comment!

Okay, I know I said no more updates until I get comments but I love these pics so much! AFTER these I am not updating until I get comments on all my new posts! So...I think I might be waiting a while....

Funny Stuff

okay, we're back to where we started...this is my last update until i get comments on all of my new entries. here's

some funny stuff i found on twitter. one of them you have to know what went on to understand it but i thought they were funny...bye for now (and i'm not writing anymore of my series until i get comments too)

Different things...

WHY DO PEOPLE DO THIS?! THEY GO AROUND ABUSING THEIR BODIES AND THEIR MINDS JUST TO BE COOL OR TO FEEL BETTER! PEOPLE HARM THEMSELVES BECAUSE IT "TAKES AWAY THE PAIN", WHAT PAIN?! YOU ARE 7TH GRADERS! I JUST DON'T WANT PEOPLE TO DO DRUGS, IF YOU DO
a) YOU HURT YOURSELF AND YOUR MINDS
b) YOU GET CARELESS
c) ALL YOU DO IS FEEL WORSE AFTER TRYING TO EASE ANY "PAIN"
d) I CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH DRUG ADDICTS

NOT ONLY HAVE YOU HURT YOURSELVES BUT YOU'VE HURT ME! DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO SEE YOUR FRIENDS GO TO A SCHOOL THEY COULD'VE AVOIDED? DO THINGS THAT MAKE THEM LOOK COOL? ACT LIKE IDIOTS (IN THE BAD WAY)?! STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT! ): I HOPE I'VE MADE MY POINT...

Things Change and So Do People (Chapter 5)

Hey everyone! Finally here's chapter 5! I'm thinking about making another series this one is getting kind of long. Enjoy!

Slowly fish ventured back home. Excited Tarrzar flashed a small, rare grin towards Jesse. Jesse slipped off her tennis shoes to reveal damp socks, determined to stay quiet. At last she jumped. Reaching the stone she landed soundlessly.
"Yes!" Tarrzar exclaimed.
"I did it!"
"Now you learn to hunt."
"No th-"
"Do you want to die out here?"
"N-no."
"Very well, first you must scan the water for fish and when you see a suitable size you-" Tarrzar snapped his jaw open and closed as he dove into the water to venture back up into the fresh air with a slippery bass.
The fish flipped back and forth until, with a sharp slash, the fish stopped in it's tracks.
"Your turn."
"I don't th-"
"Do it!" So she did. Jesse skimmed the water for a reasonably sized fish, unable to imagine the cruel fate the fish would end with.
Slowly, Jesse crept closer to the lake pressing closer toward the water. She opened her eyes in the water in search of fresh kill. Darting after a big, fat bass her hands swooped forward, through instinct. Jesse swiftly lifted her head out of the water to reveal the panicking bass.
"Kill it."
"I can't."
"Do you want to live?" with that, Jesse let out a sigh, smashing the bass into the stone ending it's life. Forever.

Poems (Inspired Ones)

Some of these are old and one of these I made up today...

Haters:
You hate his voice,
You hate him,
Why not be respectful,
And respect our opinion?

You don't like us,
We tend to be okay towards you,
It's like threatening us with dynamite,
But we won't tap a foot to your hating tune.

Your eyes freeze when he's seen,
You sneer is you face,
The twitch of your lip is dislike,
But we feel not one ounce of pain.

Besties!
We're as close as close can get,
We can talk about anything,
They say opposites attract,
How can that be,
When we are the same?
Some may believe that rule,
Maybe I do, too,
Although, that rule doesn't apply to you,
Best Friend.

Failure
The finish line just ahead,
I climb towards the top,
Afraid to fall,
I don't look down,
In this sea of hopelessness
Is where I could drown.

I feel hands,
Pull me down,
I want to hear the silence,
But there's so much sound.

I see dawn overpowering dusk,
My view becoming blurry by a thick musk,
As I feel my tips touch the silver ribbons of success,
My eyes can see the finish again,
But then...
I fall

SM Poem
Lies and myths blown out of your mouth,
Love taken by manipulation,
You make me want to pack my bags and head on south.

Screaming to hear your voice,
To overpower and control everything,
He seems to hate me,
It's hard to cover up this sting.

Secrets seething through the open,
Words said that should be silenced,
Fists held back,
Holding back the violence.

Practice what you preach,
Before giving the advice,
I don't want to gamble,
But you force me to roll the dice...

S Poem
How could you let this happen?
Why are you so cruel?
Taking everyone's dignity,
Making me look a fool.

Acting like you care,
When authorities around,
But the moment that they leave,
You bring my spirit's down.

Untitled
Here I am back again,
Feeling lost and lonely,
Here I am back again,
Forced to feed your every whim.

Untitled
First it's pleasant,
Then it hits,
The brain cells inside,
You start to wonder,
About your wild side.

Mistakes happen,
Abuse happens,
Manipulation begins to settle,
You're a new person,
Lost in self pity.

Your brain becomes a nutshell,
All you do is cry,
You chose a path with

The Monster
Now you want to die...

Untitled *dedicated to Shannon*
You've pushed her to the edge,
She's hit rock bottom,
Crying unable to smile,
You say you don't care, that you hate him,
But that's what upset her all the while.

I try to make her strong again,
Patching up the wounds,
Hoping you'll change your mind,
She could break again sometime soon...


Hope you liked em! I think I may start taking requests for poems if I can dig deep enough! Just tell me what you want the poem to be about! Comment saying what your favorite poem is! (:

The Poem (:

This is the poem that the guy wrote for Shannon and I

Emily and Shannon,
Spark like a Cannon,
They're best friends forever,
They're each others great indeavor,
They're one of a kind,
One's you cannot find.

Adam is their game,
Lambert is their name,
They met at RCMS,
How they did you'll never guess,
Music is their love,
Two angels from above♥

I thought it was sweet! Whataya you think?

A guy and A poem

okee dokee so, friday this dude wrote shannon and i a poem...mrs t read it (he told me to show her) and she said he liked us! so we got into this argument and i ended up saying the dude is not the type of person that would do mean stuff to girls (i think mrs t thought i was on something when i said it). mrs t said it was the most idiotic thing i've said all year! what i meant is that the guy has his sweet moments....if you want to see the poem (gotta get his approval first) then post a comment saying you want to see the poem! bye bye!
~Emolaylay

Things Change and So Do People (Chapter 4)

If it's a little rusty tell me, haha.

Panting and gasping, wolf and girl came to a halt. Jesse grasped her chest for breath while Tarrzar sat down in a dry pile of dead leaves to rest.
"We must eat soon." Thought the wolf.
"Where did my bag go?! It had all of my food in it!"
"You will eat like me then!"
Jesse gasped, she never thought she would even become so needy. She wasn't quite ready to become a mutt yet.
"I can hear your thoughts!" Tarrzar roared, enraged," Perhaps you would like to know what I think of filthy humans! You're fools! You know nothing about us or anything else! Do NOT make assumptions of our kind!"
"I--I,I'm sorry..." Jesse's eyes flooded with tears.
Tarrzar's face softened but his eyes were stern, glassy... Never did he show weakness fore his guard was always up.
"Come." Tarrzar growled. Jesse stumbled to her feet and obeyed.
The pair stopped at a nearby stream plentiful of fish. The sparkle of the lake shone like glitter.
"What are you doing?"
"I am doing nothing; you are learning to hunt."

As they jumped from stone to stone all fish fled away. Tarrzar looked annoyingly at Jesse, altho his thoughts were calm.
"You must move with grace, you must be quiet, swift."
Jesse then lifted her toes, as if to perform as a ballerina and jumped. As she stumbled onto the edge of the small, mossy stone, she yelped in surprise, falling into the water! Jesse hopped up to find the wide open snout of Tarrzar...wheezing!
"What are you laughing at?!"
"You look ridiculous!" He thought rolling on the dirt with his paws crossed.
"Like you could do better!"
"I most certainly could!"
"Do it!" Jesse exclaimed, intimidated by the challenge she declared.
Tarrzar lifted his left forpaw and leapt past the stream onto the nearest stone with a perfectly balanced landing without a sound.
"Easy!" He thought smirking and eyes sparkling.

Yes it is rusty, I haven't written this in a while so, yeah. Hope you like it! comment!

Poems!

Here is every poem I have written! It's a lot but it's fun! (: Here ya go:

Life (edit)
Unseen twists and turns through pitch black tunnels,
Sad, hopeless, without the guidance of light,
Earth crumbles beneath my feet,
Hands touch a surface, any surface, trying to stay strong,
It was me against the world,
It looks like the world had won.

I search far and wide looking for answers only to find more questions,
Sooner or later in that search I cave into the demons,
Eyes melt to red, crying tears of pain,
All the while I try so hard only to hear my loud screams,
The throbbing ache inside my head makes me want to burst,
And anytime I try anything it only tends to get worse.

The lesson here, my friends, is never to test life's limits,
If you push life too far you'll never reach the sky,
Think of what might happen before reaching the end of time,
Careful now, on the edge of hopelessness,
Remember you can't fly,
You can't fly away from life's complications...

Untitled (this poem is not called untitled! it is edited though)
Fire burned through your eyes,
Ice seeps through your voice,
Your laugh permits poison through our minds,
Your smile is forced.

Your thoughts always form to words,
Then they lean towards emotional hurt.

Unhelpful advice,
Mad at everything,
You create the drama,
You ruin my songbird sing.

Drama is your best subject,
You and your voice are enough,
We can do without the huff and puff.

Unhelpful advice,
Mad at everything,
You create the drama,
You ruin my songbird sing.

You cut through silence without a knife,
No keeping peace with you,
It's hard to keep track of all the bad things you do.

Unhelpful advice,
Mad at everything,
You create the drama,
You ruin my songbird sing...

The untitled one is on my old blog so, yeah. Comment! I'm so happy that everyone can see my blog now! Popcorn and Shannon....UPDATE ON YOUR BLOGS ALREADY!