well,

since no one reads this anymore, do you ever feel like a relationship is materialized? that you are used? that people are only your friends because of the convienences you hold in your hands? i do. i wish we could all be just true friends. not materialized. i wish we could all speak our own opinions. the only time people have anything to do with me is on a birthday or a holiday. gifts. materials. why do they mean so much to you?